Friday, September 10, 2010

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Back to school

Well school didn't wait for a while to get hectic. It pretty much was from day one and hasn't let up any since. Classes have been in for three weeks now and I have already had papers and I am taking my first test tomorrow!

This semester I am taking
1. Advanced French (so hard)
2. Contemporary French Literary Theory (so so so hard)
3. Intro to Secondary Teaching
4. Young Adult Literature
5. Philosophy (not hard but confusing)

I am still working 4 days a week at Fred's and taking all of my classes PLUS doing 30 hours of in-school observations. Needless to say, I wake up at 6:30amvery morning and I don't get a chance to chill out until about 6:30pm. It's stressful but I like being busy and being productive.

I'm excited for my 30 hours of observations this semester in Intro to Teaching. I get to go out into a local school and watch real teachers in real classrooms. I am assigned to DM Smith Middle School in Cleveland for my first 15 hours. DM Smith is on the OTHER side of the railroad tracks here in Cleveland, so it will be a good example of what to expect in the rest of the Delta. My class is 6th grade reading. I went for my first day on Monday and was slightly overwhelmed. It was the first time I had been in a middle school since I was in Ridgeway so I didn't really know what to expect. It was SO loud because the school is just one huge building with dividers as walls. I could hear every other teacher on the hall's lesson. But the kids were pretty good and eager to do thier work and participate. I'm excited to be going back next week.

Other than work and school, not much going on. For a back to school treat, Caleb and I went to Vicksburg last Saturday and went shopping for a day. :) I got a lot of nice new "teacher" outfits to wear out into the schools.

The kittens have been so bad lately. Everynight, they have knocked over our trash can or gotten on the counter tops. I think they are going through thier kitty "teen" years and being rebellious. I still love them.


Thursday, July 29, 2010

The end of summer!

So, I don't know if I have EVER been glad for summer to be over, but I am so excited for school to start again. I am ready to be back in class and have a normal schedule again. I am looking forward to my classes, too.

But mostly, I am so excited because Caleb and I both got AWESOME scholarships for this year! Not only will we not have to take out loans and go deeper into debt, we will won't have to stress out about paying the bills and we can have some FUN and go out occasionally. :)

I am now officially employed by Fred's Pharmacy Indianola and I've been on the job three weeks or so. I am actually liking it a lot more than I expected to. I just wanted a job to make ends meet, but I'm having fun. It is never boring, that's for sure.

Indianola is about 30 minutes from Cleveland and it's your typical Delta town, which is a good thing. I seriously love the Delta. I wish there were a few more things to do, but the people, landscape and whole way of life here is totally my style. I really don't think I'll mind sticking around here for the next couple of years.



Friday, June 25, 2010

Blog Abuse!!!

Ok, so my blog has seriously been neglected over the summer! I suppose that's because I haven't had much to blog about. Caleb and I have been desperatly looking for jobs since school got out, but we didn't have much luck as fast as we thought we would. So up until now, we have just been sitting around the house, watching Netflix....and that's about it.

Finally, though, I got a job working in the pharmacy at Fred's in Indianola. I'm supposed to start sometime soon. (Believe me, it cannot come soon enough!!!)

The kittens are getting all grown up! They went to the vet and had their surgeries two weeks ago and they both weighed over 5 pounds! And, for some reason, they both got tattoos on thier tummys to show they were fixed. I told Caleb he needs to get a tatttoo on his stomach now to match the rest of us. :)

O, and I am super jealous of my little brother who just happens to be in merry ole England right about now. But I'll make it to Europe one of these days, hopefully. :)

I'll do better about updating!


Sunday, April 25, 2010

Where did April go???

Ok, I have NO idea where the month of April went. Between Caleb being super busy two weeks ago and me being SUPER busy last week, April has just flown by. I have ONE more week of classes and then finals week and I will be done with sophomore year!!!!
Dean's Scholars took me to Nashville Wed-Fri of this week. I must admit that it was the most fun trip we went on this semester. Us girls had a lot of fun hanging out together and the conference was really informative and useful. The event was the Council for Execptional Children's national conference. It was HUGE! The conference was held at the Gaylord Opryland Hotel and Convention Center. Olivia and I got lost more than once trying to find all of the sessions we wanted to go to.

I think I liked this conference most of all because I got to go to sessions that delt with problems and situations that I will encounter in a high school setting. I attened sessions about gifted children, how to teach writing skills to kids with ADHD, a session on creating an appropriate cirruculum for disabled children, and a session on how to identify with culturally diverse students. While I don't plan on teaching special ed or gifted ed, this conference really helped me realize that I will be encountering ALL KINDS of students in my classroom and I need to be prepared to help every student in any way I can.
I've decided that is the main reason that I want to be a teacher. I want to help every student I come across in some way. I know that in some kid's lives, they don't have positive role models and they don't have anyone who believes in them. I want to be that person. I think everyone deserves an education that helps them achieve thier potential. Who knows how many potentially great students are caught up in the system and don't have anyone to support and encourage them. I want my students to know I believe in them and that I care about them. I think that will make more difference in thier lives than any French or English I teach them. Everyone thinks that my idealism and positive attitude is naivity, but I really think it is what a good teacher must believe every single day.
On a different note, here's a picture of Brittany (a fellow Dean's Scholar) and me at our Award's Ceremony. I got two awards. :)
Now on to math homework and 3 phonics lessons. :(
I think I will die if I ever have to think about phonics or phonemic awareness ever again. Ugh.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Prom Night in Mississippi: Part 2

Caleb and I went to see "Prom Night in Mississippi" last night here on Delta State's campus. If you don't know what the movie is about, here's a short synopsis:

Until 2008 (the year I graduated high school), Charlston High School in Charlston, Mississippi (where I have family) had two seperate for white students and one for black students. Somehow or another, Charlston resident Morgan Freeman got wind of this and thought it was "the stupidest thing [he] had ever heard of". He proposed to the senior class, if they had an itergrated prom, he would pay for it. The movie chonicles the students lives planning and attending thier firts intergrated prom.

The film was about what I expected. Having lived in Mississippi almost my entire life, the attitudes expressed by students, faculty and others are ones that I have heard my entire life. Parents and grandparents holding on to the past, faculty afraid of change, and students who as young adults, are just starting to formulate thier own ideas about race and equality. Most students in the film, along with most people my age I know in Mississippi, are moving past the racism, fear, and hate. With each passing generation, it seems that race is becoming less and less important and young people treat other equally.

BUT for some reason, after Mississippi's long and torrid past with civil rights and inequality, most people in Mississippi, young and old, feel it is ok to discriminate against people based on thier sexuality. A lesbian in Ittawamba, Mississippi wanted to bring her girlfriend to prom, and she was told she couldn't. The administration went on to cancel the school sponsored prom and allowed parents to hold a prom to which Constance was not invited.

I have to ask myself; Where was Morgan Freeman?

Why is no one in Mississippi supporting her rights? Why are her civil and equal rights not as important as black students? Why is a racially segregated prom throughly shunned but one segregated based on sexual orientation perfectly fine?

Well, it's not. I am ashamed that things like this happen all too often in my wonderful state. The young people need to face this challenge head on. Now that my generation has placed blacks and whites on the same playing field, it's time to do the same for the LGBT community.

Because whether you like it or not, gay rights=civil rights. The same civil rights we denied blacks for so long, we are denying to gays. And I think everyone is Mississippi should be ashamed that something like this could happen.

Here is a way you can help.

You're never going to believe this story.

First this Mississippi school board canceled prom because a senior girl wanted to take her girlfriend. Then they organized a 'fake' prom (five students attended), while the rest of the students went to a secret prom organized by parents.

I just signed a petition to stand with Constance -- and condemn the school board's failure to treat its students with the respect and fairness everyone deserves.

It's got to be pretty lonely to be in Constance's shoes. She didn't set out to start a fight in the courts or in the media. All she wanted to do was go to prom.

Join me in letting Constance know we're supporting her.


Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Fall 2010

French 301 Advanced French TTh 12:15-1:30
French 442 Contemporary French Literary Theory MW 2-3:15
English 455 Young Adult Literature M 6-9pm
English 442 Jane Austen T 6-9pm
Curriculum 300 Education&Field Experience MWF 9-9:50
Philosophy 201 Intro to Philosophy TTh 9:25-10:40


Friday, April 2, 2010

It was 80 degrees have no idea how happy that makes me!

I love spring-time!!!!


PS- I just saw this on the Human Rights Campaign's website. I want it SO much! It's a panda supporting such a worthy cause!

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

My ideas on healtcare

Before I write this, let's all keep in mind...
1. None of the Healtcare legislation affects me now (as I am on my parents health insurance)
2. I am young. I don't understand what it means to pay for insurance monthly, the burden of medical bill, etc.
3. I do not consider myself a real fan of either mainstream political party.
4. I don't have a televison. I don't keep up with the news (unless it makes the Yahoo! homepage). I don't hear what Katie says on the Nightly News or what Glenn Beck rambles on about on Fox News.

At first, I didn't really understand what all the fuss was about healthcare. What was wrong with it? Why did it need reforming? Why were people so darn upset about it?

So, I looked up some explinations of what the bill said, in plain English. I read something like this article though not this exact one.

After reading this, I thought, "Hey, sounds like a good deal to me."

But then I realized, as a theoretical Libertarian, I should be opposed to such staunch government interference. It scares me to think how much control governemnt has and how it just keeps getting bigger and bigger. Because I believe that small government=effecient, people-serving governement. However, we live in the United States, one of the largest countries in the world...small governement isn't going to happen. So all my Libertarian ideals, as much as I believe in them, do not really apply to my real life situation.

That's about the end of my political position on it. Now, for the part that really matters, my emotional response.

I highly recommend everyone go watch the PBS Frontline Special "Sick in America". It does a really good job at putting a face on the millions of American who desperatly need healthcare, but are unable to get it for whatever reason. It made me realize insurance companies are evil. The stories told in this documentary should make anyone believe that there needs to be a way for EVERYONE to have healthcare, even if that means government regulation. In this case, government is the lesser of two evils.

And the bill isn't even going to affect most people. Just the people who really do need health insurance and can't get it. And you know what, if it means I have to pay a little higher premium to help millions of people who need medicine who could previously not afford it, I am OKAY with that.

Go watch the Frontline documentary and put yourself in someone else's shoes. If that were you or your family, would you be so opposed to healthcare reform? I think not.

You should not be so angry over legislation meant to HELP millions of people. And if you are so worried about the cost, why don't you divert all those angry protests over to the TRILLIONS of dollars we spend on war...

Healthcare=Helping People
War=Killing Innocent People

Just think about it.


Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Happy Birthday Mrs. Sherry!

Last night was "Bedtime Story Hour" at DSU. Kids from Cleveland came to the School of Ed. auditorium and we read them stories and did activities with them. I found this really cool book about a panda on sale in the Student Union for $4 and randomly bought it. So I was pretty pumped when I realized I could use it for Bedtime Story Hour.

I brought all 15 panda bears from home and my panda comforter. I wore my "Protect Panda Habitat" t-shirt. I pretty much looked obsessed...which I am. :)

The book is called Zen Shorts by Jon J. Muth. It's about a panda who befriends a set of siblings and teaches them Ancient Chinese wisdom through the telling of short stories, hence the name Zen Shorts.

For my activities, I made posters of Chinese symbols and let the kids copy them in a HANDMADE booklet. I also gave them the link to the Pandacam at the Memphis Zoo ( I also taught them how to hold chopsticks and let them (attempt to) pick up things with them.

I had fun, but it could have been better. We were supposed to work in groups of 4, but I ended up in a group of 2 and my partner didn't come to class the two weeks we had to work on it or last night. So, I did all the work myself. I hand made all of the booklets, bought all of the would have been nice to have help. And I was told to prepare for 25 kids....I had 3. That was a lot of wasted time and money...but if those three kids had fun, then I guess it's all worth it.

Today is Caleb's mom's birthday, so a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to her!

Here's a picture of the kittens. They are almost 4 months old. They are growing up TOO FAST!


Monday, March 29, 2010

Turning over a new leaf

So I have decided that I need to blog daily/semi-daily because that's what I started this whole thing for. I want to be able to look back on it and remember what life was like. Even if it's just a poem I read in English or a new recipe that Caleb and I tried, I want to document real life, and for the most part, real life is pretty boring.

So for today, I guess I can update on what's been happening. Caleb was really stressed out and busy last week because of his education class. He has to get 15 hours of observation by the end of the semester, but he can't do it at Margaret Green Middle (which is right across the street). He has to drive (at least) 10 minutes outside of Cleveland and observe somewhere esle. Which is difficult considering we both have class from 9-3 everyday. I hope he is able to figure it out and his professor understands his situation. I have to take that class next semester, but at least I am aware now that I will have to observe, so I can make my schedule around the times I need to observe.

Which, it's almost that time. Time to meet with advisors and get schedules for next semester. I pretty much know what I need/want to take, I just hope it all fits in my schedule. I really need to take a summer class or two, but summer school is expensive and there are NO scholarships that cover it.(which is really stupid because if you gave people scholarships for summer, they could graduate faster, get jobs, and pay back all those loans and scholarships faster...the world would work so much better if I were in charge). But I'll be taking Curriculum&Feild Experience, Speech, Philosophy, French, Child Psycology, and either another education, French or English class.

I'm also going to suggest watching three French movies that I have fallen in love with. Forgive me if I spell them wrong and don't have the right accent marks.
1. Avoir et Etre
2. L'auberage espagnol
3. Moliere
These are really the only French movies I've ever seen, but I have loved them. Not just because they are French, but they each tell a wonderful story with a kind of humor, love and style I don't think many American movies try to create. But that's just my opinion. :)


Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Spring Break!

Hurray! It's finally Spring Break! A whole week of not worrying about school, no waking up early and just being lazy. Yes, please!

Caleb and I went to Southaven for the first part of SB. I have to admit, I'm glad to be back in Cleveland. It feels more like home than anything these days. :)

We went to my cousin Charlsa's wedding on Saturday. It was a really nice wedding and it was good to see all my family (and show off my ring!!!). I'm so happy for Charlsa and Cooper and can't wait until it's my turn. :)

We got the kittens a cat leash so they can go play outside now. (They are SO spoiled) Simba loves it, Bubby, not so much. But I think she will get used to it and start having some fun.


Sunday, March 7, 2010


Well, it finally happened! Caleb and I are engaged now! I am so happy and so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He asked me on Wednesday night, but we wanted to tell our families in person, so I couldn't tell until Friday. It just about drove me crazy. I wanted to tell EVERYONE. I still want to tell everyone. :)

We have no idea when we're getting married as of now, but I cannot wait to start looking for dresses and start thinking about colors. :) :) :)


Sunday, February 21, 2010

Simba and Bubby

Here are some new pictures of Simba and Bubs, plus one of Caleb and me on our date night.


Thursday, February 18, 2010

100 on a math quiz today!!! Good day.

Caleb and I had date night tonight! I love date nights. It gets hard to always fully appreciate and be romantic with someone you live with 24/7, but date nights make me fall in love with Caleb all over again. :) I know, that's soooo cheesy.

Tonight we went to Hey Joe's, a restraunt and bar here in Cleveland. We both got burgers, which were pretty good aside from the fact that they put mustard on BOTH of ours and neither of us wanted mustard. But it was fun to eat out in Cleveland for once. Cooking gets tiring every night. After dinner, we went to the Miss DSU pageant. My fellow Dean's Scholar, Amber Ray, won Miss DSU and will get to be in the Miss Mississippi pageant!! I love pageants. Everyone looked so beautiful. I think Caleb had fun, too with all those pretty girls. haha.

No class for me tomorrow! Hurray for sleeping late! Caleb has a test at 9 in the morning. I think I'm going to have to tie him down to get him to study.

Friday, February 12, 2010

En Français

J'adore le français.

Aujourd'hui, j'ai vu un bon film de français, "Etre et Avoir". C'est très joli et amusant.

Rien d'autre.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Waiting for it to snow

So, it's supposed to come a blizzard tonight, or something like that. I hope it snows enough to cover the ground so 1. I don't have to go to class and take a quiz and 2. it'll be nice and pretty. Southaven has gotten SO much snow now that I don't live there anymore. Lucky them. Caleb and I are keeping our fingers crossed.

Caleb and I got to go home for the first time last weekend for his birthday and for the Super Bowl. Caleb's parents took us out to Corky's for his birthday dinner. :) Caleb and I split a rack of ribs. Yummy. :) My parents had the EYC Super Bowl party at our house which was fun. Stupid Saints won, but that's alright. The Colts have to let someone else win every once in a while, just to be fair. My mom and I were representing. :)

I love this picture!!!

Caleb and I have been sick this week and last week. Caleb had it first and passed it to me. We both had sore throats, coughs, and a fever. Luckily we weren't sick at the same time, so I took care of him and he got well, then I got sick and he took care of me. I lost my voice from Monday til Wednesday. :( I felt so bad and I was sick on Caleb's birthday. Poor Caleb, I didn't even make him a cake. I'll do better next year.
Hopefully Caleb, Bubby, Simba and I will be snowed in by this time tomorrow. :)

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

I really dislike the person who decided I had to determine my career at 20.

I am seriously putting off some Algebra homework right now. But I have been working on it all evening, I am about at my limit, so I think a break is needed. Why do I have to be so dumb when it comes to math? :( And it doesn't help that when I don't understand, I just give up. It's a really bad habit I need to work on. Thank goodness Caleb is good at math and has patience with me. That's why I love him.

This past week has been busy, as always. It just seems like there isn't enough time in the day to do all the things I want to do. There always seem to be dishes to wash, homework to do, or some other not fun chore. O the joys of responsibilty and growning up. I have been trying really hard to make time for fun time, time to destress, and time to spend with Caleb because I might have a mental breakdown if I don't. ;)

Dean's Scholars took me to Natchez last weekend. I loved Natchez. It was so cute right on the river. It was my first trip and we got to tour some of the old antebellum homes and see some more sights. Dean's Scholars were there for the MAMLE (Mississippi Association of Middle Level Educators) Conference. We got to present our research in a session, which was fun for me. Why am I the strange person who doesn't get nervous public speaking? I love it really. I think I just like the attention. haha.

While on the topic of education, I had a huge realization in my Sociology class last Wednesday. I was totally not paying attention to the lecture and started thinking about what I saw my future as. I started thinking about teaching kindergarten (what I've wanted to do for years) and then all of a sudden it hit me...I love kids, BUT I honestly don't think I want to teach them 5 days a week, 180 days per year for the rest of my life. I think I might go crazy. I just cannot imagine going to work everyday and it consisting of singing silly songs, playing silly games, and not having adult conversations. Now I know elementary school isn't all games and songs, but I think I would be the worst teacher ever. I would have those kids 1. Scared of me 2. Sitting quietly at desks arranged in rows 3. Learning in the most cut and dry way possible. Because that's the kind of person I am. Silly songs are not my style. And I don't think it's fair of me to deprive these kids of the learning environment they will learn best in.

In light of that revelation, however, I've now decided that I want to teach high school. French, specifically. I just thought that if I could do what Dr. Mitchell does for the rest of my life, I would be happy. I LOVE learning about French and I think that should be what indicates my profession because I need to love what I do, or at least like it sometimes. SOOO that means I could be changing my major to French, minoring in Education and English (so I could teach English too, if I want). Who knows though...I haven't really made a decision. I need some advice or a Magic 8 Ball or something.

On a lighter note, the babies (Simba and Bobbi, that is) have been a constant source of laughter and annoyance all week. They are the sweetest things on earth. They are both sleeping on me now as I type this. They won't sleep anywhere but right beside me or on top of me, which is a pain, but I really don't mind. I do mind when they wake up at 3 in the morning and decide my leg is a scratching post or my toes are mice, but they are just kittens. I can't be mad at them long. :) They have such distinct and different personalities. Simba is a big butter ball and loves to explore and hide and be loved on. Bobbi is fiesty and demanding. If she needs or wants something, she is going to tell you about it. Neither of them like being home alone while Caleb and I are in classes. They go hide while we are gone, and when they hear us come home, they run out and don't leave our sides. I have a feeling they are going to be SO spoiled.

Back to the HW


Saturday, January 23, 2010

While Caleb makes dinner

There has been so much going on the past week!
We got our baby kitten Simba today! We also got his sister who Caleb named Bubastis, Bubby for short. (Bubastis is the name of a cat in Watchmen). They are so sweet and playful. I feel bad for them because they had to leave their mom, but we're going to take good care of them. They are sleeping on my pillow now. I hope they sleep ok tonight and don't keep us awake.

I went to the SECA (Southern Early Childhood Association) Conference in Little Rock with my Dean's Scholars group Thursday and Friday. I had so much fun there! I loved being around girls and having girl talk again! All of them and our sponser Mandy are so nice and I really think I am going to enjoy working with them. This was also the first time that I had been around other Education Majors and Teachers which was beyond awesome. It was great to interact with other people who share my passion for children. It made me feel much more secure about my choice of major. It really solidified that I want to spend my life working with kids, because I really do love being around kids.

My 20th birtday was last Tuesday night! I cannot belive I am offically no longer a teenager. And only 360 days until the real fun starts. :) I had school all day and had to do some Dean's Scholars stuff til 6 that night so Caleb was sweet and made dinner for me and made me a strawberry cake! :)

We actually celebrated my birthday on Saturday night because I knew I would be busy and tired out on my actual birthday. He made me a wonderful steak that night and got me some pink roses with yellow lillies and yellow daisies. (I love him, he knows what I like) He also got me a silver necklace that has an engraved C (for Caleb) on the front and on the back it says "Forever and Always". I pretty much love it. :)

Life in the Delta could not be better right now.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Back to school

I feel like such a new kid on campus. There isn't even the comfort of knowing that freshmen don't know their way around. But, I think I'm blending in ok. :) And after only a few days, I've seen some familiar faces around campus, which is very comforting.

So far, Delta State has been wonderful. My scholarship program meeting went great and I found out that I'll be in Little Rock some next week and then Natchez the week after that.

My Classes
  1. Algebra
  2. English
  3. French
  4. Sociology
  5. Early Literacy
  6. Survey of Exceptional Children

Caleb's Classes

  1. Cur 300
  2. English
  3. Sociology
  4. Economics
  5. Geography
  6. Psycology


Friday, January 8, 2010

Pork Chops and Pandas

Caleb here.

Nicole is making me write a blog while she cooks up a wonderful pork chop dinner. She's been doing a wonderful job cooking for us every night. I enjoy cooking, but she won't let me until she feels like she's done 'fulfilling her womanly duties,' as she puts it. Anyhow, there's not much to do in the little town of Cleveland (which seems to be the consensus from everyone we have talked to), so we subscribed to Netflix. We've been watching a show called 'Dexter,' and I must say that it is excellent and that I highly reccomend it. Also, Nicole has a birthday coming up and I'm having some difficulty coming up with something to get her. We're a little broke which makes it that much harder. Maybe she'll post a blog or something giving me some ideas. ;) I leave you with pictures of our recent visit to the Memphis Zoo. (Nicole has an unhealthy obsession with Pandas)

Settling in and SNOW!

As I write this, I'm waiting on my porkchops (kraft recipe: to marinate and Caleb is doodling away at our kitchen table. Today marks our first week on our own!! So far, so good. :)

Everything is in order at school too. I met with my advisor on Wednesday and got all the classes I needed. She was super helpful and introduced me to a lot of the faculty here at Delta State. I was with her a full hour and a half which is an hour and twenty minutes more than anyone in the education department at Ole Miss ever gave me. She intoduced me to a lady over the Dean's Scholars program at DSU. I feel so lucky because during this meeting, I was offered an amazing scholarship and a chance to be a part of a seemingly awesome and exclusive group. I don't know a lot about the program, but it's a funded research project aimed at helping educate kids and keep them healthy. I'm really excited. My first meeting is Monday. :)

On Monday morning Caleb and I woke up and it was a little colder in our house than ususal. We got up and went outside to get the mail and realized there was SNOW on the ground. I was fully prepared to never see snow during my time in the Delta, but it has snowed three times here this week. Nothing has stuck and there is no accumulation, but still. Something about snow is magical and automatically makes me smile.


Sunday, January 3, 2010

We're finally home!

We made the move. Today is officially our third day on our own. Moving wasn't too bad, actually, but there is still so much stuff to put away and find places for. That's my goal for next week. Unpack and find a home for everything. Then I will be completely happy and I'll take some pictures.

For now, I'm really just concerned with the heat working. The pilot light keeps blowing out, so we haven't had any heat the past three days. I have a little heater fan that we move from room to room. Not fun. It's strange that now when something breaks, I have to do something about it. Responsibility is scarry.

More later.