Friday, February 1, 2013

A glass case of emotion

You'll have to forgive me if this blog gets completely taken over by pregnancy/baby things. It's just about all I think about any more.

On the one hand, I feel very zen and at peace. Prepregnancy, I was a constant worrier. I might have even lost my voice for 6 months due to stress/anxiety. But now, I feel like everything will be ok. I don't have all the answers and a lot if things are still unclear, but I'm ok with that. I know I'll just take it as it comes. That's all I can do, right? No use in running my blood pressure up.

On the other hand, I am so ridiculously emotional over the silliest things. I know I'm being so crazy but I can't help it. For example....

- I cried for quite a bit because I wanted a straw with my ginger ale and we didn't have any. When I realized I didn't have a straw in the house, I full on ugly cry lost it. Caleb was very concerned I was so upset and I just sobbed "I really neeeeed a straaaaww". Nice, Nicole.

- Caleb and I were listening to iTunes on shuffle one night, laughing and singing. The theme from the Disney movie "Tarzan" comes on. I hear the first few notes and begin to sob....not because its a sweet song, but because the momma gorilla dies in the movie. The song has nothing to do with her dying. Makes total sense, right?

- At least once every few days I full on ugly cry because I "love Caleb so much". He finds this hilarious.

- Caleb and I were taking about extreme environmentalist (what odd dinner conversation) and he was getting excited. He wasn't yelling, just talking very fast and excited like. I burst into tears and accuse him of screaming at me. He begins to laugh and then I cry even more because he is screaming at me AND laughing at me.

These are such silly things to be upset over, I know. I can't help it though. Darn baby.