Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Let's talk baby names

First, I AM NOT PREGNANT! We are NOT "trying" (I hate that expression). While we find ourselves talking about baby #2 quite a bit, there are certain things Caleb and I both want to accomplish before we add another little person to our family. Just so we are clear. 

I love talking about baby names. I'm not sure why I find them so fascinating, but I love them. And I won't lie, I will seriously judge you based on your baby's name. 

I think most couples having babies these days want an original or unique name for their baby. I get that. I did, too.  But there are two major groups. Those who want an unique "new" (Jaiden, Aria)  name and those who want an unique "old" name (Wyatt, Ruby). I'm most definitely in the latter group. 

So I thought I would share some of my favorite baby names. We are 90% set on baby #2's name if it is a boy. For a girl, we cannot agree on anything! We know for sure that we want to use family names, so that eliminates A LOT of my favorites. I'm ok with that but I'll still always have a soft spot for certain names. 

Family names marked with an * 



Those are some of my favorites. Who knows what baby #2's name will actually be. We were 99% set on another name for Wilson up until the moment we weren't. Sometimes things just click and you realize the baby in your belly has a name you've never considered but it feels just right. 

Monday, July 28, 2014

The weekend

I'm currently rocking Wilson for his nap and praying the ATT man doesn't come and wake him up. Our neighbors cut down some limbs this weekend and cut our internet cables. Thankfully we were gone all weekend, so we didn't miss the internet. But I depend on netflix to entertain Wilson long enough for me to shower and something crazzzyyy just happened on my show and I NEED to know what happens. Hopefully the cable man will come this evening and fix it quickly. 

We had a great weekend in Southaven. We stayed with my parents Saturday and Caleb's Missouri family got in on Sunday. Wilson had so much fun with everyone. He got to see all of his grandparents, half of his great grandparents, his aunt and uncles plus all the cousins (I'm not exactly sure of their proper relations to Wilson. Great aunt? Third cousins? I don't know. It gets confusing.) from Missouri. Wilson can be a little shy around new people at first, but as soon as he warms up, he is the biggest show out. I think he already knows he is the center of attention. 

I didn't get in the pool this time, but Wilson had so much fun watching everyone else play while he splashed in his float. 

Wilson made friends with my mother in laws huge cat. The cat probably weighs just as much as Wilson but the cat was so gentle with Wilson. Wilson is pretty good at being gentle and soft but at one point he had the cat in a headlock trying to give him a hug. So funny. 

I mentioned to my patent that I was thinking about getting Wilson a small chair for his birthday when my dad went and pull this out of the attic. This was my rocking chair when I was little (there's no doubt because I engraved my name all over the arms of the chair). It's a little big for Wilson right now, but he likes sitting in it. I can just imagine him a little older, rocking and looking a his books on our (future home's) front porch. It melts my heart. The chair is in really good condition and is quite sturdy so maybe one day my grand kids will be using it, too. 

Friday, July 25, 2014

Four on Friday (because I'm lazy/boring)

1. My hair is falling out in huge clumps. I know postpartum hair loss is common, but it just started about a month ago. I'm constantly shedding. Dr. Google says it's probably hormonal or anemia related. I think I'm going to start taking my Flintsone vitamins again and see if that helps. Thankfully I have the thickest hair ever, so even with losing so much, it is still quite full looking. 

2. I've become addicted to 'Sons of Anachy'. I think gangs and organized crime are so interesting. I've seen every episode of "Gangland" and "Lockup:Raw".  In another life, I think I would work for the DEA (or maybe be a drug lord). 

3. I've decided to buy one more large container of formula and that's it. With that, we will have enough to last until right before Wilson's birthday. He has been doing great with cows milk from his sippy cup. I think he will be ready. Over the next few weeks I'm going to add a little milk to top off his formula bottles. Little by little, we will go to all milk. I also think Wilson is getting ready to drop his afternoon bottle. He only drinks maybe 3-4 ounces. So I think I'll just give him a cup of milk. I'm not in a hurry to drop his morning and night time bottles though. When his doctor said he should be down to at most 16 ounces by 1, I thought she was crazy, but Wilson is definitely showing less interest in his bottles. 

4. Wilson is going to get to meet his aunt and uncle and cousins from Missouri this weekend. We are going to Southaven tomorrow for a day so they can meet. I'm excited. I really enjoy showing my baby (toddler, really) off. 

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

If I'm being totally honest

I've debated writing this down for a little while. Mostly because I'm not so sure of the end result and I don't want to come across whiney or ungrateful. But I feel like I've been keeping a bit of a secret. It's hard for me to say but....

I hate living in cleveland. Hate it with a passion. 

Ugh. There. I said it. 

I hate living here. There is nothing to do. Quite literally, there is nothing for families in this town. Our "park" consists of two swing sets and four slides. No public pool. No kid gyms or inside play areas. No mall or indoor shopping beyond Walmart. No movies. No museums. No library story time. No "mom and me" classes. Just nothing. 

On top of there not being any actives for Wilson, the schools here are not great. We are zoned for the best kindergarten in town but that school only has a 6 out of 10 rating. Most kids go to the private school but 1. we can't afford that and 2. it's really not much better. I have never wanted to homeschool but if we are still here in 5 years, then it's a real possibility. 

While we were in school at delta state, I could forgive Cleveland of its flaws. We were busy with school during the week and then could take off to Memphis, Jackson or wherever on the weekend to do fun things. 

And don't get me wrong. I love Cleveland. I really do. It's where Caleb and I started our life together and where Wilson was born. Caleb has a great job that he enjoys at our alma mater. I like a lot aspects of living in a small town. We know lots of people and everyone is so nice. It's not Cleveland's fault that the everyone with the means is moving OUT of the Delta. Cleveland does the best with what it has to work with, but sadly, it's just not enough. I want more than cleveland has to offer for my son. 

All of my friends live in either a larger city or the suburbs and I constantly find myself jealous of their Instagram feeds. Their kids get to experience so many fun things daily! Even if they just go to Kroger, their Kroger is 3 times larger, has those car carts, offers samples to try and doesn't have a homeless man harassing them for money. (I really do feel horrible for the homeless in Cleveland, but they are slightly aggressive and it makes me very nervous going to Kroger alone). They have multiple parks with multiple play grounds per park. There are indoor malls. And that is just what my friends do with their kids regularly. I won't even go into their trips to the children's museum or the zoo or aquarium or Gymboree. I'm so jealous. Not only would I loooooove to get out of the house more but I am dying for Wilson to have fun, engaging, social activities. We don't get out much in cleveland because there just isn't anywhere to go. I can only walk around Walmart so long. 

I hate that I want to leave. Because it's never going to get better if all the young, educated, middle class families leave for greener pastures. It Takes commitment and dedication to improve the community. And I'm so sorry that I can't stay and do that. But for my sanity and my son's growth, I need more. 

So what does all that mean? It means we are keeping our eyes and ears open for new opportunities. We know we want out, but we aren't sure where just yet. Maybe Southaven. Maybe Jackson. Maybe Oxford. Maybe Little Rock. Maybe Idaho. We aren't sure. But we do know Cleveland isn't our final destination. 

Non related-

We finally made it to our community "splash pad" yesterday. I was a little underwhelmed but Wilson thought it was the greatest thing ever. He played so hard splashing and wading around. He even played with some of te other kids. We will definitely be going back very soon. We have to get him some swim diapers. He got a horrible diaper rash from it. 

Monday, July 21, 2014

4 day weekend

Let me start by saying that 4 day weekends are the best and need to happen more often. The last time we spent 4 whole days together was Christmas. Two day weekends just aren't enough time. 

Thursday we just spent time together. We cleaned the house a bit, went to the grocery store, and watched a whole lot of netflix. 

Friday, my mother in law and sister in law came to visit Wilson. We ordered pizza and Wilson played with the new toys they brought him. 

Saturday, we went to visit my gran in Water Valley. We went to Oxford and had dinner at Zaxby's, which is just about the only place that Caleb and I both love. We have very different tastes. We also went by their Goodwill store. Caleb is obsessed with Goodwill. And I don't blame him. He always seems to find name brand dress shirts and pants. He has gotten like-new things from The Gap, J.Crew, LL Bean, and Perry Ellis. All for $3.99 a piece. I never looked much on the women's section, but I gave it a try Saturday. Omg, have I been missing out. I got so much stuff. I got a khaki Vineyard Vines skirt that still had the tags on it! For $3.99!!!! I got two skirts, three shirts (one from Talbots, which Caleb laughed at me for because only old ladies shop at  Talbots but it looked cute on me), a pair of designer jeans, and some nike shorts for a grand total of $30. All of it looks barely worn. I think I'm a Goodwill convert now. 

Sunday, we just relaxed and watched more netflix. I'm currently watching The X Files and Caleb is watching The West Wing. We were both too young to watch them when the shows originally aired, but we felt we were missing out on some great series. 

Wilson has been so sweet and fun lately. We went through a few weeks where he was always pretty fussy but whatever that was has passed. Now he just goes goes goes constantly. He is so curious and he plays really well with us or by himself. He is constantly looking for a door to open (he learned that skill waaaayy to soon for my liking) or a drawer to pull open. He says "mamma" when he is tired or wants to cuddle or wants his bottle. So he may not have the meaning quite right, but he is using his words to express that he wants something specific, which just blows my mind. I also think he may be understanding that shaking his head means "no". He shakes his head when he is in trouble or when he is unhappy. Wilson also cut his 5th tooth and the 6th will probably break thru this week. 

I'm going to write a whole post about our success with sleep training but I just have to brag for a minute. We now put Wilson down between 9-10 (which may seem late but that's just when he gets tired. He isn't overly tired nor does he show any signs of being sleepy before then), we give him a hug and kiss and put him in his crib and he instantly lays down and doesn't make another peep until morning. No crying whatsoever. It is amazing. And the best part, Wilson sleeps until 9:30-10:30 most days. On Sunday, after his big day Saturday, he slept until 11:15! Our tight schedule has gone to hell but I'm sure we will get back on a new one soon. I don't even care as long as we all keep getting long nights of sleep. 

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

A few of my favorite things

Being a stay at home mom has it's ups and downs. I tend to get caught up in the everyday routine and only focus on the negative parts. I don't get out enough, I'm "on call" for my "job" 24/7, my days are spent watching endless Sesame Street, etc. On and on whining and complaining. 

But yesterday I saw a posting for a job that sounded great for me and seems like something I would really enjoy. I decided to apply and just see what happens. As soon as I submitted the application, however, I was hit with a wave of sadness and anxiety. Am I really ready to quit my stay at home mom job? 

I don't know the answer to that question. There are pros and cons each way. I was weighing my options with Caleb and he reminded me how much I complain about staying at home. Which he is totally right. I DO complain a lot (I think I'm just a naturally whiney person). But there are tons of great, awesome, amazing things about being a stay home mom. 

For the sake of looking on the bright side and not believing the grass is greener on the other side, I thought I'd list some of my favorite things about my life as a stay at home parent. 

1. I know Wilson and his personality inside out, upside down, and any other direction imaginable. I know his moods. I know his cries. I know his poop schedule. I know my child intimately and I really appreciate that closeness. It feels good to be that in tune and in sync with another person. 

2. Pajamas (for both of us) all day, if w want. 

3. I don't miss a second of Wilson's life. I literally watch him develop and grow daily. I see little moments of growth and discovery, like when he learns to dance or climb the furniture. I see the little cogs turning in his mind when he plays with a new toy. It's amazing to watch these moments. I know that I'll always remember them and appreciate them, where if Wilson were in daycare, these little things wouldn't even be noticed. 

4. Along with knowing Wilson so well, it is easy for me to tell when he is off. I could tell he didn't feel well (teething) the moment he woke up today. 

5. There is no better feeling in the world than Wilson snuggling his head in my shoulder and rocking my sleeping baby. Kissing his sweet face while he is asleep and rubbing my cheek in his soft hair is the best. 

6. Sometimes Wilson will just walk up to me and pat my leg to say "I'd like to sit in your lap". So I pick him up and we cuddle. Usually for just a minute before he is off to play again, but those few minutes are pure gold. It feels good knowing he wants to be with me. 

7. I am allowed to have a bad day. I can't get fired for screwing up or losing my cool. It happens, but I move on. Wilson forgets nearly instantly and he usually forces me to laugh and smile within minutes. We don't dwell on the bad. 

8. It doesn't matter what I look like. Most days I brush my hair, throw it up, brush my teeth and that's it. I'm ready for the day. I wear makeup maaaaybe once a week and I can probably count on one hand the number of times I've "done" my hair since Wilson has been born. It's quite freeing not to have to worry about how I look everyday.  

9. I am Wilson's friend, teacher, chef, comforter, explorer and so many other titles. We do everything together. We have fun together.  

10. I don't miss anything in Wilson's life. I asked Caleb if he felt like he missed out on Wilson's life and e admitted that he did a little. Then I told him to imagine if he didn't have me giving him daily updates and pictures. Caleb said he would really feel like he was missing out then. 
And I don't want that for myself. I really wish that Caleb didn't have to miss out, but we obviously have to have an income. But I don't want to feel like I've missed my child's life. He is the most important part of my life.I don't want to miss out on his development. Wilson may  be our only child, so I really want to soak up as much of this time as possible. I don't want to miss it. 

So I don't really know how much longer I'll be at home with Wilson. I'm just going by what I think is best for our family. That may be a few more weeks or another year. I just don't know right now. But I do know that I'm going to try to focus on all the good parts of being a stay home mom because it will come to an end eventually. 

Wilson has the cutest, most dimply baby butt I have ever seen. He also loves being naked. We give him a few minutes of naked time every night after his bath and he walks around his rooms with a huge smile, beating his chest, and shrieking. It is hilarious. 

Saturday, July 12, 2014

Saturday randoms

New episodes of Daniel Tiger came out on netflix on Monday. I haven't been that excited in a loooong time. It made my week. I usually let Wilson fall asleep for nap time watching Daniel. Sometimes, 45 minutes after I've put him down, I'll realize that I'm STILL watching Daniel Tiger. O, mom life. 

We have conquered sleep training. We now put Wilson in his crib at bed time and he cries for maybe 5 minutes tops and then sleeps for 12 straight hours. He has been sleeping from 9:30 pm-10:00 am for about a week now. It is the most amazing thing and I am so glad sleep training worked for us so well. We are all so much happier. 

Since Wilson has been sleeping so late, we cut down to just one nap a day around 1 or 2 pm. He isn't taking a longer nap than usual, but it is working out well for him. 

While Wilson was with my parents, they created a juice monster. He loooooves juice now. He was drinking about a cup of water a day, but if I add just 1/4 cup of juice to it, he easily drinks 2 cup fulls a day. I can barely even taste the juice because I water it down so much, but Wilson adores it. He loves strawberry kiwi, apple and grape. 

I also let him try cow's milk for the first time yesterday. I was having a cookie and milk and I always share my drinks with him. He came over and obviously wanted some of my drink, so I let him try it. O man, he loved the milk. He drank huge gulps and smacked his lips. I know he isn't "supposed" to start cow milk until he is 1, but if his tummy isn't upset this weekend, I may start giving him just a little each day while still giving him all his formula. But I'm not going to lie, the sooner I can transition him off the formula (and bottle), the happier I will be. Formula is expensive and constantly sanitizing bottles is annoying. 

Caleb is only working 3 and 4 day weeks this month, so we are enjoying the extra daddy time! We were going to go to the splash pad yesterday but it rained all day. So we took a family walk in the rain. I'm sure we looked crazy but it was fun. Wilson kept licking himself trying to drink the rainwater. 

I got 4 containers of portebella mushrooms for $2 and 15 pounds of chicken breasts for $30 at Kroger today. I feel so accomplished and pumped up. Couponing/finding deals is addicting and like a game I must win. I love good shopping days. I feel like I'm definitely winning the stay at home mom game this weekend. 

Saturday, July 5, 2014

The 4th of July

Wilson is off with his grandparents this weekend, so Caleb and I got to act like "normal" young twenty-somethings for once. Even though I miss Wilson tons (and I talked about him all day yesterday to anyone who would listen), I really enjoyed getting out of our normal habitat and going a little crazy. 

After we dropped Wilson off with my parents, we headed east to Starkville to visit my brother. Being a tried and true Ole Miss fan, I have never spent any time in Starkville. I had some fairly negative preconceived notions about it, but it is actually a nice town. There were tons of local restaurants, which I loved. There were also lots of places to just hang out and lots of bike paths and outdoor activities. It certainly isn't my beloved Oxford, but it beats the pants off Cleveland. 

Once we got to my brothers, we went on a beer run (at 2 in the afternoon! Haven't done that in a looong time) and watched the Brazil vs Colombia World Cup game. I'm rooting for Brazil so I was happy they won. 

After the game we went to eat at Mugshots in downtown. I had a buffalo chicken sandwich with batter fries and it was soooooo good. The fries were amazing. Really, really amazing. 

We headed over to my brothers boss's house at 8 because he lived right next to where the fireworks show was. It was so fun just hanging out and drinking. I'm a really extroverted and social person. I light up around new people. It was good for my soul to make some new friends and take a shot (or three....). 

We didn't get home until 2 in the morning so we crashed hard today. I made some beef stew, but that is all I've done today. I'm currently binge watching "The Fall" on Netflix eating said beef stew. It's a good day. 

I'm not even going to lie, I'm excited to go get my little boy tomorrow. We will probably go swimming again and have dinner with family. Best weekend. 


Thursday, July 3, 2014

Wilson -- 10 months

Double digits! Two months away from ONE!! Goodness. This month just flew by and I have a feeling the next two will, too. 

- I have no idea how much Wilson weighs. I'll guess around 24 pounds. He is 31 inches long, also by my estimate. The tape measurer they gave us in the hospital when he was born only goes up to 30 inches and he is a bit longer than the tape. 

- The doctor got on to us for giving Wilson so much formula, so he has cut back to three 6 ounce day time bottles and then one 8 ounce bottle at bed time. It's still more than the doctor reccomended we give him, but I'm trying to scale him back slowly. 

- He is still eating like a champ. Three meals and a snack (or two) every day. His favorites this month are oranges, peaches, plums, cauliflower (yuck), broccoli, and hot dogs. I think he may have gotten burnt out on carrots and sweet potatoes. The only thing he has tried that he doesn't seem to like at all is eggs. He has had them 3 times and barely touches them (I don't blame him. I hate eggs and their weird texture). We are going to try fish soon. 

- Wilson is wearing 12, 18, and some 24 month clothes. Still in size 4 diapers except the Kroger brand. They run really small. Might be moving up to 5s soon. 

- He is still taking 2 naps a day. Morning nap from 10-11:30 and afternoon nap from 1:30-3:30. He is fighting them so hard right now. He might be trying to tell me he is ready for just one long nap. 

- Night time sleep has been a doozie this month. At the beginning of the month, he had a huuuuge sleep regression. He was waking up every hour and impossible to put down. It was rough. So Caleb and I decided we needed to teach Wilson to learn to put himself to sleep and to comfort himself. We are still in the thick of sleep training, but I think it is working. He has slept soundly every night since we started. 

- Wilson has two top teeth and two bottom teeth. His top two have a hilariously big gap. I think he is about to cut his top incisors. 

- Just this week, Wilson has decided to quit crawling and has started walking. He gets better at balancing and navigating every day. He is going to be fast soon. 

- He is getting really good at giving kisses. He makes a kissy noise with his mouth that is so cute. He only kisses me sometimes and never kisses Caleb. His favorite things to kiss are his stuffed animals, the dog (on the nose), and his reflection in the mirror. 

- He nods his head yes and shakes for no. I don't think he knows what it means, but he has the command and the motion down. 

- He is babbling lots. He is also throwing fits when he doesn't get his way. 

(Those eyelashes!!!)

- Likes: Daniel Tiger, eating, evening walks, when his dad comes home from work, the pool

- Dislikes: diaper changes (they are TERRIBLE and I dread them), nap time, getting off schedule