I hate living in cleveland. Hate it with a passion.
Ugh. There. I said it.
I hate living here. There is nothing to do. Quite literally, there is nothing for families in this town. Our "park" consists of two swing sets and four slides. No public pool. No kid gyms or inside play areas. No mall or indoor shopping beyond Walmart. No movies. No museums. No library story time. No "mom and me" classes. Just nothing.
On top of there not being any actives for Wilson, the schools here are not great. We are zoned for the best kindergarten in town but that school only has a 6 out of 10 rating. Most kids go to the private school but 1. we can't afford that and 2. it's really not much better. I have never wanted to homeschool but if we are still here in 5 years, then it's a real possibility.
While we were in school at delta state, I could forgive Cleveland of its flaws. We were busy with school during the week and then could take off to Memphis, Jackson or wherever on the weekend to do fun things.
And don't get me wrong. I love Cleveland. I really do. It's where Caleb and I started our life together and where Wilson was born. Caleb has a great job that he enjoys at our alma mater. I like a lot aspects of living in a small town. We know lots of people and everyone is so nice. It's not Cleveland's fault that the everyone with the means is moving OUT of the Delta. Cleveland does the best with what it has to work with, but sadly, it's just not enough. I want more than cleveland has to offer for my son.
All of my friends live in either a larger city or the suburbs and I constantly find myself jealous of their Instagram feeds. Their kids get to experience so many fun things daily! Even if they just go to Kroger, their Kroger is 3 times larger, has those car carts, offers samples to try and doesn't have a homeless man harassing them for money. (I really do feel horrible for the homeless in Cleveland, but they are slightly aggressive and it makes me very nervous going to Kroger alone). They have multiple parks with multiple play grounds per park. There are indoor malls. And that is just what my friends do with their kids regularly. I won't even go into their trips to the children's museum or the zoo or aquarium or Gymboree. I'm so jealous. Not only would I loooooove to get out of the house more but I am dying for Wilson to have fun, engaging, social activities. We don't get out much in cleveland because there just isn't anywhere to go. I can only walk around Walmart so long.
I hate that I want to leave. Because it's never going to get better if all the young, educated, middle class families leave for greener pastures. It Takes commitment and dedication to improve the community. And I'm so sorry that I can't stay and do that. But for my sanity and my son's growth, I need more.
So what does all that mean? It means we are keeping our eyes and ears open for new opportunities. We know we want out, but we aren't sure where just yet. Maybe Southaven. Maybe Jackson. Maybe Oxford. Maybe Little Rock. Maybe Idaho. We aren't sure. But we do know Cleveland isn't our final destination.
We finally made it to our community "splash pad" yesterday. I was a little underwhelmed but Wilson thought it was the greatest thing ever. He played so hard splashing and wading around. He even played with some of te other kids. We will definitely be going back very soon. We have to get him some swim diapers. He got a horrible diaper rash from it.